Is it okay to fall, somehow, it's an idea I thought I've already blocked on my mind. Life has turn out to be a series of rejection and insecurity and I'm not really sure if I'd like to go over that road again.
Things have been ironic lately, but I'd like to think it makes sense. Letting go, moving on, acceptance, and somehow a new beggining. But as the word "ironic" implies, you find a new beginning on the edge of unfortunate circumstances.
It feels like every weakness I have is magnified as I try to grasp for another breath of hope. And it's not funny. The insecurities, the incomptence.
I said I'm better of alone, and I'll say it every moment possible in this situation. But the fact the it starting to feel that I'm getting the affection that I've always long for... All i can ask is why, and together with this questions are doubt. How can I be sure this is not an impulse of my loneliness? How can I be sure that this feeling is a valid pulse of affection?
It's hard to know.
But just like what I've always told myself. "Time will tell".
But what if... My time's running out...
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Hey watchers, I know that it seem that I am too conflicted right now... But the news for you is that I'm already done with some new art after the long hiatus. I'm excited to share the new things I've learned and the new style and forms I'm engaging and I am looking forward to make an upload soon.
Anyway, how's your love month's going.
Mine??? I still don't know, but I've been gettin' a lot of inspiration lately.
Hahaha
Anyway, I'm turning 26 this month. And I am making this resolution to make this year a consistent deviant year,, hahaha (I coined a term).
Well, watchers, watch for me for the new art... Love ya'll...